For those who don’t know my story, this fashion and blogging thing was not on your girl’s radar at all. I have always loved fashion but I never understood it as a job choice for me, it wasn’t something that I thought I could actually pursue. It seemed so far away from my reality as a kid. It’s so funny to look back on myself as a kid and wonder why I didn’t see it when there were so many signs that I had a healthy creative side. But the smart side of me would be what I would come to rely on as my gateway to the future I thought I wanted. When I was growing up following your passion and understanding purpose wasn’t exactly a thing. The way I saw my future was very much like coloring in the lines. All my late 70’s and 80’s babies know exactly what I mean. I didn’t exactly think about whether my choice would bring me joy or if I would actually enjoy it. I just knew that I was intelligent, made good grades and wanted to be successful. A law career ain’t bad if you ask me, right?
To be honest, no, it’s not bad. But… Don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t trade this experience for the world. I have lived a good life as an attorney but there have always been those moments when I’ve asked myself is this enough, I want more. And within the last several years I realized that it wasn’t, that my more involved that creative side that I had neglected to nurture. Oh what to do, what to do? I listened. I listened to the voice inside that led me to me. The me that I had always longed to be, but didn’t dare become because I was so accustomed to coloring within the lines. It freed me in a way that I could never describe. I found purpose and calling when I stopped worrying about what I should be and became what God created me to be.
I absolutely love anything fashion and beauty. I have always been an advocate for looking and feeling your best from the inside out. I don’t think that clothes and makeup are frivolous because in so many ways they tell our story. Especially when we become adults and have more agency over the story we want to tell. Combined with my love for God, thought and writing I am in heaven. To be able to combine all three in this lovely way brings me so much joy. The joy that I would not have if I had not moved out of my comfort zone. And if you were wondering that’s how this lawyer became the Intellect in Heels.
I refuse to allow other people’s perception of who they think I should become overwhelm my sense of self or purpose. I am all of these things and it’s great. Nope, I don’t fit the mold and I love it. To be honest I don’t think there is a mold for any of us. When we are born we are one of a kind and multifaceted. The key is that I learned to embrace the understanding, that I am more than one thing and in my lifetime I can be more than one thing. I won’t lie this journey is scary and there are a lot of unknowns but the joy I feel outweighs the fear. The deeper I get, the more I know I can’t turn back.
Question: what does that more look like for you? Let me know in the comments or on Instagram.
Photos & Editing: Lucretia L.Scruggs